normally I don't write journals, it's not really my thing to do, to tell about feelings or what's bothering me.
We this time I will make an exception.
There are a lot of things happening right now, 9th of March I'm turning 21, I just heard this morning that I got a new
cousin, a girl, her name is Anna XD, I'm really happy about that.
But there are also things that aren't nice, my grandfather from dads side haves lung cancer, we don't know for how long he still
haves to live, it could be days, it could be months.
And my grandfathers older sister, who is like an aunt to me cause she haves no kids and her husband died young, is also dying.
She would turn 90 the 5th of March. She doesn't have long to live, a couple of days least.
The next problem is the funerals, my dad's will be going of course, but I don't want to see him. This because of domestic violence,
he just doesn't accept my confines(border? , dutch: grenzen). He acts like anything that happens didn't happen, and he only hings about what he wants. So I'm pretty nervous about that kind of stuff, what to do etc.
At least there are nice things to, maybe this weekend I will go to see my new cousin Anna ^^, and then My birthday,
I'm really looking forward to that.
that's about it I think,
sorry if this story of mine makes you depressive